When things change they really, really fucking change!!!
Ya’all know Andy told me he was married saturday night. Well, I went to Liberal on sunday and I was just driving along and Drift Away came on the mp3 and made me cry. It never has before. Then on wednesday I saw an ad. He has an ad on the craigslist where he’s working. Actually that day he had 3 ads up. Two of them were for women. The other one was for a man. Somehow that’s the one that disturbed me.
I actually replied to one of his ads and said I wished it was me he was hosting. I thought at the time when I saw the m4m ad that it was him but I wasn’t positive. So then last night I was going to check that ad again but he had taken all three of those ads down and put up a new one. He used the same pic that was in the m4m ad. I can’t unsee what I saw.
Thursday I broke down in my bosses office and told her about Andy being married and not knowing what I want to do. She gave me some pretty solid advice.
Then last night a guy emailed me after I saw Andy’s new ad and was sure the m4m ad was his too. I was in just the right mood and went to his hotel and got laid. It wasn’t the best I ever had but it worked for the time.
I gave him the 5 minute condensed rundown and he asked me one question, Do you want to live in a place of pain? Uhhh, no, as a matter of fact I don’t.
The pain is Andy, pure and simple. Between the time I saw Andy’s new ad and when I went to the hotel I put my own ad up on craigslist. I’ve got emails from at least 2 dozen me so far and there’s at least two of them I’m real interested in.
Oh, Mr Cute Motel is #oops.
And now I have a date with a guy for next saturday night. I’m going to drive to his house!!